Choose You, Boo!
This is the time to boost self love! During the fall season the energy of the heart is strong! This is a great time to decide to chose yourself. This October there is a full moon in Aries. The fire energy needed to burn through resistance is present, if we can access it within ourselves. I found myself focusing on exactly what I say I don't want! Limiting beliefs can force us to perpetuate the wanting of a thing rather than the having the desires of your heart.
I am reminded of a poem called For My People that I memorized when I was a teenager: ...bending their knees nightly to an unseen god ...all the while needing shoes and food and....
For My People
BY MARGARET WALKER
For my people everywhere singing their slave songs
repeatedly: their dirges and their ditties and their blues
and jubilees, praying their prayers nightly to an
unknown god, bending their knees humbly to an
For my people lending their strength to the years, to the
gone years and the now years and the maybe years,
washing ironing cooking scrubbing sewing mending
hoeing plowing digging planting pruning patching
dragging along never gaining never reaping never
knowing and never understanding;
WRITE AFFIRMATIONS IN THE AFFIRMATIVE
I saw one of my old journal entries that stated: I want to be useful and dynamic in the world. I scratched out "want" and wrote: I am useful and dynamic in the world. I am useful and dynamic in the world. Even if I don't produce or perform anything else, my presence here matters! Your presence here matters!
This is how we can pray or affirm and yet still find ourselves needing: we desire one thing but affirm the want of that thing instead. "Praying to an unseen power" ..."Never reaping never gaining and never understanding"... in this case, for me, means subconsciously believing that based on my shadow operating instructions what I desire is not possible to have. The concept of personal operating instructions came from the book on examining the shadow self called Existential Kink by Carolyn Elliot https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/50915816-existential-kink
So if I stay in that mind set, I will never reap, nor gain.